Saturday, April 22, 2006
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Ello... i'm very stress today.. esp today... didn't slp well @ all... i'm so lost... so many things on my mind... i hate making decisions, esp decisions tt will eventually involve 2 person instead of 1... lyk... haiz... nvm... i dunnoe... y is my personal principle so strong... i juz reaise tt i'm always standing by wad i believe... is tt good or is tt bad... haiz...
actually to be honest, everything tt is going to happen has its pros & cons... so ya... anyway.. went for orientation yesterday... ya... was viewing all e ccas... fell in love w 2 of them... dancesport & piano ensemble... was trying to make a decision out of these 2... but... but... nvm... ya... i love dancesport more den piano cuz... i wanna carry doing all my ballroom dancing stuff... i juz want to dance in poly... but haiz... got so many consideration to take into... haiz... i've always wanted to do this, its juz tt i never say out, cuz its pretty costly & i know tt i wouldn't be able to do it... its lyk now i have a chance too.... should i give it a shot or juz miss it, cuz of the consequences... but i'm willing to bear all consequences lehz... haiz... this is driving me mad... WAD AM I SUPPOSE TO DO!!!! juz becuz of this, pple tell me, including my mummy, tell me to join both piano & dance, & see how... if i can cope, den i'll do both... but mummy knows i love dancing.. so she gave me e green light to it... i'm happy @ her decision though.... cuz she agreed tt piano i can learn it externally if i choose dance over piano... ya...but... now i've got to make a decision... if i'm alone, i will say yes straight away... its something i want to do so long... so ya...
Anyway, yesterday's orientation was fine... i'm in class 1CO2... haha... lyk carbon dioxide lyk tt... haha.. so funny... anyway... managed to make friends in my new class.... my class is an all girls class again... ya... lyk... okie... 13 yearsof an all girls class... wad to do... haha... anyway... we found out our course ratio of girls is to boys - 185:5... haha... so funny... there's lyk only 5 guys in my course... so ya... but okie lah... thiscourse is expected tt more girls would be present.. so ya...
tt's abt yesterday lah.. today not going to do anything much... juz stay home, slowly think abt my decision, & make 1... cuz monday school start. den will go & sign up & all mah... so ya... left tmr to consider... so ya... okie lah... gtg now... cya...To Dad... Wad am i suppose to choose for my CCA... Y did u leave so early... i need u to help me choose my CCA now... I really need u... Not for CCA only, but for so many things... I need ure strength... i need u to tell me tt i'm going to school... i need u to assure me that everything is going to be fine... I NEED YOU!!! Where r u???? I love u so much know... I want to hug u, kiss u, feel u all over again... i know u're always by me.... u'll always be Shaina, Mummy & my guardian angel... but... haiz... I LOVE YOU!!! To sweetheart: Thanks for everything... Today's a special day for u right... Happy 18th Birthday... May all your dreams & wishes come true... i love u.... -hugs-
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
ello... so long never update, cuz got nothing to update... its either tt or cuz i'm too tired, tt's y never update... oh well... anyway... tmr last day @ work... friday got orientation, monday go to school... fast ahr... oh well... anyway....
going to miss working @ house of kids... its such a nice environment... i love working there... i love e kids there... they are so lovely... i love joshua lim, tina sin, adrian yeo, magdalene mok & many many more... i love them all... esp josh... he's so cute... haiz... so fast 2 weeks are up...
anyway... i miss my daddy... daddy's 100th day is approaching soon... haiz... y does time fly so fast... i really miss my daddy... so many things are happening... & daddy isn't beside me... haiz...
okie lah... shall end here now...
