Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Hello**Back to update...The month would be ending tmr...Man...Fast uh....Oh wells...Submitted project already...Majority of my work done...=(I think i'm under lots of stress..Everytime i'm under stress, lots of funny sickness start to hit me...God knows why i'm under stress...Really dunnoe why...went to the doctor today...Got lyk damn angry this morning...Den smart me drop the 3-pin pluck on my toe...Started bleeding...=(Until now my toe still hurts...Had a very stiff back too...Told the doctor about my falling asleep problem...Doctor asked me why i'm stress...Honestly i couldn't answer at all...Came home with lunch for Shaina & myself...After that, sat down & think through why i'm so stress...Mayb cuz of dance...I dunnoe...The date of the competition is drawing nearer...Everyone is improving except me...That's wad i'm feeling...That's why i feel so terrible...Haiz...Finals is all i ask for...But i dunnoe if it is even going to be easy...Haiz...2 weeks of holidays is coming soon...God knows if that's even enough for me to rest... **Pretty lost is wad i'm feeling now**
**Who can help me, i really dunnoe**
**Trying to get stuff off my mind is wad i'm doing**
**Whether i can succeed, i really dunnoe**
**Pray for me**
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
I'm sick...
I've got sore eyes...
I'm home for 2 whole days...
Got lots to do but so little time...
I cannot slp every night...
Dunnoe wads wrong...
Mayb cuz i've lots on my mind...
Dance is going fine...
Oh well...
Tmr i've got attachment...
Got to implement an art lesson...
Its so tough to come up with age appropriate lesson & it has to be related to the theme...
But when is anything easy...
I've chosen this course...
The difficulty i muz go through...
I've learnt alot...
I've become a teacher to carry out lesson...
Tt's an achievement...
I'm in year 2, no more in year 1...
I've got to grow up...
Every1 is growing & doing better den me...
Clarissa you've really got to pull up your socks uh...
If not there's no where for you...
Everytime i switch on my media player while i'm doing my work...
I would always love to listen to this song...
The song that makes me wonder & think seriously..
How did I Fall in Love with You.Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone
Those days are gone, and I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight
chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight
chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
Bridge:
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah
I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life
chorus:
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall, in love, with you?
**I've got to grow up****When will that happen****I'm no more a small girl****I've got to learn to grow up without guidance****But with determination****I'm sure i'm able to do so****Pray for me****God help me**
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Hello**Its been ages since i last updated uh...Man...I've been so busy with the necessary & the unnecessary stuff...Recently i'm hearing of many pple's love ones leaving them...The first 1 was Marc & Amanda's grandfather...Now is Michelle's grandparent...Oh well...It juz brought me back to the times when daddy left me...Its a really tough time & it really hurt...That very night when i went with Lenny, Deborah & Brian to Marc's grandfather's wake...That very night...
I cried so much..So so much in such a long time...Memories flooded back...I'm having a hard time...I dunnoe wad am i thinking..But i know tha past ain't over...I dunnoe...The past ain't over even though i thought it had...Its so unfair to the present..But wad am i suppose to do...The past ain't very short, it ain't very long too...
We've had so much together...But haiz...I really dunnoe...But eventually i've prayed & have decided to leave this worry of mine in the hands of God...Projects deadlines are drawing nearer...I'm very stressed out with it...Oh well....Dance competition is approaching too...I need lots of practice...Why do i yet again have so many things to do with such little time...Sometimes i really wish that i am able to experience more than 24 hours in a day...I juz hope i can complete wad i have to do soon...I'm such a worrier...I had never stopped worrying have i...But lyk wad my friends will say if i dun worry, i'm not Clarissa right...But honestly i wish i dun have to worry...Worrying makes me look old...It makes me age faster den i'm suppose too...My dressing now is getting slacker with each passing day...But wad am i suppose to do abt it...I dun even have the mood to doll myself up anymore...Guess pple will not be able to recognise me soon...My life is so stressful...I'm getting tired of school...But thanks to the friends i have in class, school is then fun...Haiz....The month is coming to an end already...The month of May is ending in lyk 11 days...Tt's fast right...Soon a new month will sit in...The new month is either a good start or a bad follow up from this month...Which will it be???I really dunnoe...Since June is approaching...The holidays are therefore coming...Even though its the hols...But i'm only able to get lyk wad 2 weeks of break...Cuz tt's the holiday that i willbe getting from school...School's one thing...Dance is another...I've got no break from dance man...Cuz of the upcoming competition...Dance**My partner & I have completed learning out cha cha routine...
We've also started our rhumba routine...
However we're not going to have lesson for the next 2 weekends...
Cuz Sharon & Melvin will be out of town in a competition...
So ya...
My partner & I have to do lots of self work....
got alot of practicing & experimenting...
Oh well..
I really hope this competition will go well for the both of us as its our 1st competition....
I'm scared...
I dun want to go on the dance floor unprepared....
Oh well...
Faiz is going for NS soon...
Sad man..
I'm going to miss him loads...
I really thank him for all he the little details that he helped me in dance...
But its a sad thing to not be able to see him dance...
I hope he wun stop dancing here...
**Past, present and the future****Which is the 1 that's going to sit in my life****Am i being fair to those around & esp those involved****Am i being fair to myself****Wake up & decide**
