Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Hello**
Its been a while since i updated...
Nothing much really happen over the past few days...
Juz very tied up with projects & make up lessons...
I've fallen sick again...
Having fever & dizzyness...
But i shld be much better after today...
**I hope - keeping my fingers crossed**I want to go back to school & complete what i haven't done yet...
Swells...
Saturday (21st July 2007)Went to Caterpillar's Cove...
Man they rawk...
The childcare setting is absolutely perfect for children to grow & learn in..
Its lyk the only childcare so perfect in Singapore...
I love the open windows so that the children can see the outdoors...
The setting in there is so cozy, so close to home...
If i were a kid in there, i wouldn't mind not going home too...
After the visit to the cove, we went to West Coast Park to do our DLE project...
After doing what needs to be done...
It was relieving childhood times at the playground...
Its been ages since i was seen playing at a playground...
Sitting at a playground to relax & admire the sky, done it countless times...
Playing at a playground...
Haha...
Its been ages...
Had some little catching up in the cab with Eve & Grace...
Ended up being emotional...
Oso ended up throwing it on my dear some1...
**So Sorry**Swells...
Sunday (22nd July 2007)Went to work as a trainer at a PSLE math Seminar...
went there late cuz i wasn't feeling well...
I'm juz damn drained...
All went well during the seminar...
Things were a little different...
But i still enjoyed myself...
After tt was lyl private lesson...
Had to rush down to S&G...
Did Cha cha techniques..
It was tiring i tell you...
But worth it...
I learnt alot too...
Esp about speed...
After that went to buy doughnuts from doughnut factory...
Queued for lyk an hour...
It was madness, but honestly, it was worth it...
**I've got to learn to control my emotions**
**Thanks for everything**
**I know i'm not easy to pacify & be with**
**I'm still learning how to grow up**
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Hello**
Faiz is going for NS tmr morning...
So fast eh...
I never go to school today again...
*Nothing new*But i'm determined to go back from tmr onwards...
Lots happen these few days...
It juz made me think alot again...
Sometimes i wonder at times am i selfish...
I out dance before lots of stuff...
I dun expect any1 to do tt for me...
really...
I dun expect them to put wad they love before me...
Though i'm juz going to miss the feeling of that some1 there...
But like i said...
Its finally time for me to learn how to grow up...
Learn how to stand on my own and be independent...
See things happen for a reason...
Its juz God's way of telling me that i've got to grow up...
Things now's the same s the past...
I cannot expect anything...
But got to let go and learn s i grow...
Sometimes i say its okie, go do wad's needed...
I mean it...
really from the bottom of my heart i mean it...
Yes i'm upset, but it'll be over soon enough...
Mayb its juz me being emotional again...
But 'swells' i'll learn...
Dun have to always rush down to meet me..
I'll be fine alone...
Not s if i've never done that before...
Its juz tt it was the past...
Spent that time rushing down to find me to go home & rest...
Spend time with your mum...
I haven't been doing tt very often nowadays...
I'm guilty of it...
I miss the whole family thing...
Do wad's most important now...
I wun ask you to take leave from work already...
I understand now...
I've got my rosary & church to keep me company...
Trust me tt's enough...
Daddy's not here already...
It doesn't matter...
**I'm upset**
**But wad can i say or do**
**Do wads necessary**
**I understand**
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Hello**
Today we had a farewell party for Faiz...
He's going for NS...
-Sobs-I'm going to miss him loads...
& i really mean loads...
Dunnoe how dance will be lyk without him...
Cheryl's going to be damn sad...
Haiz...
Time fly by real fast...
Its a year already...
Faiz graduated from Ngee Ann...
Now on his way for NS...
It seems lyk yesterday we were in Johor...
& we had our last long conversationg with Janani & Darren...
In Johor...
The shopping trip with Faiz, Taz, Mel, Desmond & Janani...
The night event dinner with Faiz, Darren, Jasmine, Cheryl...
The 1 person in dance that i can turn to for help with both dance & personal stuff...
The help you offered...
There's so much...
Here's for you Faiz...
Thanks for being there when everyone of us needed you...Thanks for all the advices you've given me to improve my dance skills...Thanks for teaching me so many stuff during dance...Remember the days we all work hard for competitions...Remember how we moved on from partners to partners...Remember the late night chats...Honestly you were 1 of the reasons why i never regretted going to Johor for comp...Thanks man...Remember to continue to dance ya...We're all waiting for you to come back...We'll see you either in Ngee Ann or in S&G ya...Say you'll come back...I MISS YOU!!!!!!**How time flies**
**Its a year & everyone is moving on**
**Soon its going to be my turn**
**God, help me**
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Hello**
So i'm back to update again...
I'm sick...
Wads happening to me..
I really dunnoe...
I cannot go back to slp now cuz if i do, i know i'll never get up for the remaining lessons of the day...
I feel sucky...
Feel lyk throwing up...
Feel really giddy...
Wads happening...
=(
I rushed the project...
With high hopes that i'll be going back to school to join my friends in class...
But...
i dunnoe...
Dunnoe wads wrong...
Noone can find out what is wrong...
Wad am i suppose to do...
My immunity is low..
I've got to keep spending on consultation with the doctor & i have endless medication to consume....
WTH!!!!!I HATE IT!!!!!!!I really do....
Its restricting me...
=(
I'm pushed into a dilemma again...
I hate being in such a situation...
The amount of tears flowing from my eyes is endless...
I wonder how i manage to...
Find that amt of tears to pour out..
That energy to carry on...
I'm amazed at myself...
Why did i land myself in such a dilemma...
Muz i really make a choice...
Can i not choose...
Will that be fair...
if it will...
Den i shall not choose...
let's all juz go our seperate way and see what God has planned for us...
But its tough...
Not 1 decision that i'm going to make now is good and clever...
Can you wait...
Juz wait...
Who can wait..
haiz...
I'm lost...
Some1 help me...
Anyway... Friday night & the entire saturday is really a memory... though i wasn't feeling that well... but still i enjoyed myself.. you did alot for me... Thank you... =)Today's the 3rd of July already...
This thursday is going to be the 5th...
Time flies...
4 months... =)sometimes i lose track of the duration...
But at least i remembered the date...
**A choice i have to make**
**What will it be**
**can some1 help me**
**Help me with love & my health**
**I'm trap**
**I really am**
**Miss leading a normal life**
