rain, rainbows or sunshine

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Hello**
Had Lion City yest...
!st ever lion city...
Oh well...
It didn't evd up well...
It was lyk a series of unfortunate events I....
*According to Hope*
So wierd...
While testing the floor... Some pple had to come & put her entire heel on me..
Den while i did the 1st dance of my 1st event...
Some1 kicked me & it cuz me to get a serious cut on my toe...
While dancing my rumba for the semi finals... I had to sprain my back muscle...
Ai yah...
It was so painful that i had to pullout of grade C...
So sorry mahen...
Swells...
=(

came home....
Got read for night event....
Mummy so nicely did my hair & my make up for the night...
It was a nice hairdo...
loved it...
After that went for the dinner...
Shared the table with Richard, ryan, Nicole, Yy, Darren, Cheryl tan & ong, fiona...
The food was good...
The event was better...
Danced with Brian & Mahen during General dancing...
Found out the unexpected news....
Felt really happy for that some1...

After dinner...
Series of Unfortunate events II happened...
didn't know wad to do...
After tt came home...
Den everything didn't fall into place...
Its so irritating lah...
mayb i've got to chance some of my preferernce...
MAyb i really do...
Oh wadever...
I dunnoe wad to do...
I really dunnoe...
Sometimes being together seems more alone...
I dunnoe if tt's right...
mayb its cuz of the time..
But oh well...
Juz have to depend on myself...
Even if i rant it out to others, doubt they'll even understand...
I know he's done alot for me but...
Say i'm not understnading...
Fine by me...
I really dunnoe...
its so different from previously...
Oh well...
Nvm...
Its no use...

**I'm selfish, i admit**
**Being together makes me feel lyk i'm not**
**Is that a right feeling or wrong**
** Do others understand**
**I doubt it**
**Am i asking too much**
**Just to keep awake & spend tt time with me**
** Am i too demanding**
**I really dunnoe wad i want**
**Wad do i expect of myself & the other**

Friday, August 24, 2007

Hello**
So i'm back to update lyk after a long long while...
Yup... Exams are over...
they were over lyk on MONDAY!!!!!!!
So i've been on hols ever since monday 4PM!!!!!!!!!
Hehe...
Haven't done anything much except dance my 3 days away...
Its lyk dance, dance dance & more dance...
Until last night during private lesson...
God knows how a blister came about & burst tt i did not dance today...
Cuz my poor big toe hurts...
Its wrapped up already...
but it looks swollen...
*sobs*

Okie...
So on the 23rd of August 2007...
My dear dear dear friends Janani had to leave us here in Singapore & fly over to the United States of the America for studies...
Brian & i got her a pair of earrings as her farewell gift....
Its really sad lah...
Ai yah..
Janani & the lovely memories she left us...
The Johor trip with her rawks man...
The long story of how i met Brian cuz of Jay...
The practices for competition with her...
the final song she sang for us was lyk the 1 & only thing for the day...
Its so nice lah...
Haiz...
I miss that girl already...
She wun be there watching us or even dancing this sunday...

talking about this sunday...
THIS SUNDAY IS LION CITY!!!!!!!
My 1st ever lion city man...
Quite scared & worried though...
Dunnoe how i'm going to fair...
Grade D & for the 1st ever time, Grade C...
Scary lah...
wish me luck.......

I went shopping today after dinner...
Really shopping in a long while...
S in really buy things...
I bought a lovely red top and a pink top for myself...
& guess where they're from...
haha... Zara K.I.D.S
Haha... I'm still a small girl...
I was oso a nice nice girl...
I bought Brian 2 tops from Zara too...
See i'm nice...
=)

**Mayb i'm too demanding**
**Juz have to be nicer ya**
**Have to stop bullying you**
**Will i have my "Happily Ever After"**

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Hello**
So i'm back to update...
Hmmm...
Lets see what happened over the past few days...
I've okie... Turned 18...
Did lyk serious project work for AW which nearly killed me...
Am still sick...
Think i'm getting sore throat...
My eczema ain't getting any better...
Swells...

So... 18...
Doesn't seem to me s how the others feel abt turning 18...
ITs lyk a yr older...
With lyk more burden to carry...
Swells...
More mood swings...
but its still a year older...
On the good note...
I'm officially legal to go clubbing with the NPDS pple...
Good gathering & relaxation time ya...
Thanks to all those who were with me during my birthday...
Lenny, Deb, Brian, Marc, Daryl...

To Lenny & Deb:
Thanks for the lovely big pooh bear...

To Brian:
Thanks for the time spent...

To Marc:
Thanks for the lovely dish you whipped up just for me & my family...

To Daryl:
Thanks for the 'friends forever' handphone trinklet...

To my ECH girlfriends:
Thanks for the messages though it came it late, but lyk Jo said its better den late den never...
I'm really happy to receive it...
Really...
After all that have happened...
I'm juz really thankful that you guys remembered my birthday...
Thanks for everything...
Thanks for being understand...
I'm sorry for everything...
Hope there'll be a turn of events, so that things mayb better for me & for you guys...

To Mat:
Thanks for the lovely letter...
Reading the letter over & over again juz bring tears to my eyes...
Lovely Secondary school memories are really missed...
I miss you & the rest too...

That's my birthday for you...

AW's deadline was extended...
That was the miricle of the week...
I thank God for that...
Really...
I've got no time to prepare...
Had to rush through lots of stuff...

Emotions are lyk going up & down for me this entire week...
Everything just doesn't seem to be falling into place...
I'm juz damn stress over exams...
Comp's coming...
Exam's coming...
I really dunnoe how to cope with the upcoming stress...
I feel the pressure now...
Haiz...
=(

**I feel the pressure**
**Mayb i do need help**
**Can i admit that i need help**
**Will she even care**

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Hello**
Back to update...
My leg's killing me...
My eczema is killing...
That stupid doctor give some stupid medication that caused it to be full blown...
Damn sian...
Not only can i not go out...
I can't even walk..
Can't leave the bed...
If i have too...
I have to go on tip toes to the living room so that i can watch tv...
Damn sad right...
Swells...

I've got letter for debarment...
Swells...
Stupid doctor...
Even when all my MCs are in...
I've still got a debarment letter...
Why doesn't pple seem to understand...
I'm upset...
very emotional over it...
When i'm in serious pain, pple say i give excuses...
when i'm really give excuses, pple believes...
Funny right...
Haiz...

Had some 'quarrel' with brian today...
Swells...
I oso dunnoe lah...
Juz damn lost...
Dunnoe why i'm so affected by it..
Am i suppose to be...
He's not replying me wad so ever...
Oh wells...
=(

**What am i suppose to do**
**Why doesn't anyone understand me**
**Who understands**
**Oh God, help me**