rain, rainbows or sunshine

Friday, November 23, 2007

So much for miracles...
1st was Brian...
Den my mum...
The day juz haven't been good...

Miracles happen, miracles happen
You showed me faith is not blind
I don't need wings to help me fly
Miracles happen, once in a while
When you believe

Arh wadeva...
I shld juz disappear & not appear...
Go to school & come home...
I shld juz keep to myself...
I shld & i think i will...
I express something & this is wad i get...
I shld juz shut up from now on...
Dun bother asking me abt anything anymore...
I wun comment..
I wun ever have an opinion...
I'm gonna shut myself out frm this world again...
Mayb tt way i wld be alot happier...

So much for planning for a happy day with some1 i love...
Guess i shldn't...
Lyk wad mummy juz said to me when i asked her if i cld go to my friend's chalet...
She juz screamed & me & asked me to mind my own business....
i think tt's wad i'll do...
I shld juz mind my own business...

You showed me dreams come to life
That taking a chance on us was right
All things will come with a little time
When You believe

Miracles happen when you believe...
How much have i been believing...
I believed that everything will turn for the better...
I believed that i willbe happier...
I believed my mum will understand...
I believed that every weekend will be different...
But it seems lyk it juz isn't so...

**Miracles happen when you believe**
**When is my miracle going to happen**
**So much for a day**
**I had enough**

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Hello**
Went back to school for our EC presentation..
Haha...
The hard work paid off...
Cuz its over...
Hehehe...
Our presentation over run by abt 30 mins...
Haha...
We were only given 30 mins per group for the presentation...
Haha...
Swells...
I had fun presenting...
Role playing the skits...
Haha...
It was really fun watching the rest's presentation...
-Good job everyone-

After class,
We headed to town...
We went to subway for lunch...
& my opinion of it changed...
Guess i'm starting to like it...
-Thanks guys-
After lunch we headed over to the National Museum...
Haha...
The coolest thing of the day was our entry was free...
& my fav thing is the 'companion' thing they passed us as our virtual tour guide through the history gallery...
Haha...
Its so cool man...
All the artefacts & all...
I so wanna go back there again...
& slowly listen & look through all the artefacts and the explanation...
Its damn cool...
You guys shld go there too...

Going for attachment tmr...
Looking forward to it...
Cuz i haven't been for attachment for 2 weeks cu of my eczema...
Its getting better...
So me can go now...
Hehe...

Will be going out tmr evening with Eveleen...
We're going SHOPPING!!!!!
Haha...
I wanna tan badly too...
Me wanna go Sentosa...
Any one interested...
Let me know...

White space is a damn cool week...
& i'm loving it...
Haha...
Its so cool...
I went back to school for project meetin yest... & had only 30 mins of IT lecture...
Today went back to school for presentation & went to the national museum for project...
Tmr go for FP...
& i'm free for the rest of the week,..
How cool is that...
Haha...
The only thing is i just have to do project that's all...
=)

**Its fun to be with friends**
**Esp today**
**Its so fun exploring & discovering info for project**
**Esp on site visits**

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Hello**
Went out with Daryl & Aaron yest...
-Cuz its lyk early in the morning... So yesterday it shall be...-
Met daddy really late...
Haha...
Den went to city hall...
Hanged ard there...
walk ard doing nothing...
Met quite a no of pple...
Saw Felicia with her bf in MPH at citylink mall...
Den met my 1st crush ever in Marina Square...
Swells...
Had a drink at starbucks while waiting for Brian to come down to join us for lunch....
After that had lunch at TCC...
Man it was wierd...
the sitting arrangement was cute...
Anti-clock wise: Aaron, Brian, Clarissa & Daryl...
Haha... A, B, C, D...

So A B C D had lunch at TCC...
C got suan real bad by A B & D....
-So much for being in the middle-
After lunch...
A B C D went to Dhoby Ghaut to play pool...
Haha...
Had a fun game,,
C partner D and played 5 games against A & B...
-Cuz A & B are partners-
Den A & B lost to C & D...
hHaha...
5-0
So A & B owe C & D drinks...
Haha...
-I'm waiting for my drink-

A. B. C & D went to take the train from Dhoby Ghaut to City Hall..
The funniest thing that happened all day is that...
D's cap got stuck in between the doors of the train...
& the best part is the next station, the door which the cap is stuck in between wldn't open...
Hahah...
We laughed naturally...
Haha...
2 angmoh girls laughed too...
Guess those pple ard us laughed too...
Haha...
It was hilarious;...
hahah...

Haha...
That after which sort of concluded my day with the A & D...
Haha...
Went for dance & had 1 of the most relaxing & enjoyable dance night ever...
=)

So that's my day...
From morning till night...

**A happy day**
**A happy night**
**thanks for allowing me to be there for you all these while**
**These makes me a happy person**
**That's good right**
**=)**

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Hello**
Min quit school today...
She's going to study mass comm at MDIS....
Wells...
At least now she's doing something that she like...
-Best of luck babe...-

Me now...
How am i suppose to go for school & do things when my leg isn't listening to me...
My health is in pretty proper shape now...
I'm always waking up happy & ready to go for school...
Looking forward to school...
Prepared to do all my assignments promptly...
But now my eczema have to act up again...
is really wth lah...
Its the whole leg this time rd...
& things aren't good...
Its juz damn freaking pain...
I can't walk...
Much more dance...

tolerated the pain today...
It was juz too much for me to handle...
It was so pain when i applied the medication...
Now only God knows if i can make it for attachment tmr...
Cuz i've got to take out my shoes tmr at the centre...
If its not pain & i can walk ard the hse...
I'm going to leave hse for attachment...
If its too pain...
I've got to take ANOTHER day off attachment...
& pray that i can make it up by going back next week...
So that i can start my assignmentss...
Damn...
-God pls help me..-

Sighs....
how...
Somebody tell me how...
I appreciate everybody who's there for me when i'm experiencing all these pain...
thanks for all the advices and help that i can get & you guys can offer...
At least pple understand now...
I'm feeling alot better at the thought of it...
I hope by next week my leg will be all better for everything...
& i can carry on school life properly...
-Pray for me-

**Wonder if daddy's here**
**Will i be experiencing so much pain**
**would i be going through wad i'm going through**
**esp with my eczema**

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Hello**
Went to school today in a cab...
Damn lah...
I'm spending too much money...
Tt's bad...
Shall go on a diet while i save money & reduce weight...
Realised that i gain too much weight already...
Its time to lose them all...
I wanna go back to the time when i juz started poly...
That simple happiness...
The cheerful me...
The little 1 that dunnoe anything abt politics...
The 1 that was still in the shell living a happy life though there was a 180 degrees change...

School is becoming a terror..
there's so much work to do...
-Yet again i'm saying it-
I'm currently working on some reflection paper that have to be handed in tmr...
I'm pretty stuck...
Can't concentrate...
My mind is juz drifting off somewhere else...
thinking of other stuff & not my own work...
=(
If daddy's here & he hears this, he's going to give me a talk again...
But somehow i miss those talk...
those lectures...
but very encouraging indeed...
How i miss him so much...

Brian's having exams...
He's pretty stressed out...
-poor boy-
Mayb i shld not meet him so often till his exams end..
So that he can study & not travel ard so much...
Mayb i shld ahr...
I can't help cuz i dunnoe wad to do...
=(

Realised i have slping disorder...
Take for example last night...
I cldn't slp till 0430...
Woke up at 0630...
Fell back aslp at 0700 & woke up at 0730 to my alarm...
& the amazing thing is i didn't yawn in all my classes at all...
Cool eh....
But yes yes...
I know...
Its not healthy...

Oh wells...
Today during DPIP lecture...
Pamela & Sze Hwee came into class to give out our field supervisor's name...
Damn it...
I dunnoe who my field supervisor is at all...
& i think it scares me even more...
Cuz i'm not seeing a familiar face...
WTH!!
I'm damn scared lah...
=(

**Guess i dun understand much**
**Mayb i shld let go on some things**
**Juz give you your own space**
**Whenever you need it**
**Sorry**
**Guess i'm up to your neck uh**
**I shld let go**

Monday, November 12, 2007

Hello**
School started for about 4 weeks (aka a month)
We've been thrown with lots of work...
Been absent from school for quite sometime...
I was pretty ill...
But i'm alot better le...
So much better...

Many many projects this semester...
There's so much to do with so little time...
The only good thing is that all the projects are spread out amg the weeks...
The other good thing is that we've got weeks off RTRC modules..
Haha...
That week is called white space week...
Only for RTRC modules do we have a break...
We've got to come back for our NP modules...
=(

Back at the same centre for attachment...
This time round i'm teaching K1s...
Wonder how's it going to be like...
I've got to teach language arts and mathematics...
Have to set a MATHEMATICS LEARNING CORNER too!!!!!!
I'm so dead lah...
=(
The other bad thing is that there would be a field supervisor coming in to assess us for FP...
& that supervisor is from RTRC!!!!!!!!
& she's going to supervise me teaching language arts...
Damn lah...
I'm dead scared can....
Swells...

Dance competition coming up too...
Its on the 29th of Dec..
Its a full day event...
with a 'let down your hair' event at night...
Post Christmas, pre New Year event...
Going to be competing...
6th comp in 2 years...
3rd comp with Mahen...
How fast right...
Haha...
How time flies ya...

Pretty upset over the condition of my leg & my health lah...
=(
It'd also been pretty rough for Brian & i...
Pretty upset over some stuff...
i juz hope that those silly things we quarrel & those funny days will not happen again...
So many things happen in the past month...
Juz hope tt these few things will pull us closer...

**Thanks for being there for me when i needed you**
**It really mean alot to me**
**I juz hope tt you'll allow me to do so too**
**I juz want you to be happy**