Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Hello**Its christmas again...
It wasn't as big an event as the past few years...
But i still managed to spent time with people...
Mass
Town
Home
Tt's wad i did yest...
Didn't even stay in church for long...
Cuz didn't feel realy comfortable...
Only met up with some...
Was really really glad to see Kelynn, Lynn, Liz, Maureen, Anne-Marie, Marc, Gabriel, Nigel
Its not the same anymore...
I spotted you from afar..Loved seeing you dress up cuz its christmas...Memories cam back...Was emotionally affected...Was at a lost...I didn't know i missed you tt badly...Didn't really talk to you...The only christmas that i did not receive a hug from you..I somehow expected it...Its just so cold..its so different..But what can i expect...Thanks anyway for everything that you've done for me...Thanks for being a bf..thanks for being a friend...thanks for being my listening ear and my crying shoulder...the only christmas that i did not let tears roll down my cheeks...
But its all kept within...Brian...Thanks for sorting out my thoughts with me last night...
thanks for listening to me...I really appreciate it...Sorry i expect so much from you...2007...
Filled with lots of tears...
lots of trouble...
It just hasn't been a very fantastic year...
Lots of quarrels...
Lots of decisions...
Lots of ups & downs...
But i thank God i pulled through...
I pray that 2008 will come with much more installed for me...
I hope that it will put a smile on my face...
Here's wishing everyone out there:
A HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!
**Absence makes the heart grow fonder**
**I see it now****Its so tough****I'm sorry**
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Was reading the papers juz now abt the tragedy of the dragon boaters in Cambodia...
Its so scary how life is so frgile...
1 min you're fine, the next min you mayb gone...
Reading abt how 1 of them had bad feelings about the race led me to think how reliable are instincts or 6th sense...
Whether you should really believe it or not..
If the dragon boaters actually believed in that instinct, mayb all of them are still surviving and back in singapore training for the next event...
Mayb then this tragedy wouldn't have happened...
Like daddy...
If he knew what could be done and wasn't so stubborn on visiting the doctor...
Mayb he wldn't have left us too..
Den pple ard wldn't be upset & devastated...
Wad more the 5 dragon boaters left their families here...
they left before their parents...
I remember last week's effective communication class..
Lynn asked us how are we going to tell young children about the lost of a relative...
She said, it would be easier to break the news to the child if its the grandparents...
But what about their parents...
It made me think back to that time at the hospital, when my god brothers went back home to pick shaina to the hospital..
I was there asking my elder cousin how am i suppose to tell Shaina that daddy left...
She was lyk "Clarissa, just be direct.. there's no time for a nice way to put it"
I felt so bad for just telling shaina that daddy left straight in ger face...
No one cld help...
I'm still wondering how....
I guess s much, Ani wld understand how i feel..
It hurts even more when you here that a tragedy happened to your family members overseas...
I cannot imagine what would have happened to me then if i found out that daddy passed away overseas...
In the hospital right beside us is already so hard to accept...
What more overseas...
**Life is do vulnerable**
**What happens next no one knows****Everyday i thank God that everyone is safe and alive****That just makes my day**
